Welcome to the newly up-dated Jenion!
With the coming of autumn, I realized that the look and feel of Jenion was based on the self I was when I created the site last November: a little wintry, a little dark…OK, a LOT dark! Readers who have been with me since its inception have followed me as I’ve blogged my way through some significant life changes. And while the Hunger Challenge and weight loss goals I began with have moved out of the foreground a bit, they still inform the experiences I am writing about — namely, how someone in the middle of life’s journey can “change her mind and change the world” (even if it is primarily her interior world that has shifted!)
So the look of the blog has altered, to reflect a brighter, more upbeat sensibility. I hope it reflects my inner peace and happiness, too. There is a subscription button for those of you who have lamented that I stopped sending email reminders when the hunger challenge ended. I have also tagged entries, picking out themes and/or key words. Click on one of these (in the lower right sidebar) and it will take you to blog posts which discuss that theme. The recipes tab is more prominent, and I have added a couple of new recipes which I hope you like (including one for a spicy sausage and veggie soup I created myself)!
As I worked on updating the site, and going back to tag previous entries (which, by the way, is time-consuming and not finished!), it occurred to me that I ought to give some kind of status report on my journey. Originally, I thought this would take the form of updating you all on happenings in several categories. But as I gave it more thought, I realized I wanted to share two things in particular: one a personal insight, the other a goal – both derived from the experiences of this past ten months.
First, after a lifetime of living most of my days in either the past or the future, I have learned to live in the present moment. It is both energizing and freeing to live right here, right now. You begin to feel your life vibrate at a higher frequency, and each moment takes on a special and important quality. Living in the future, thinking things will be better at some distant point (someday when I’ve lost weight, or won the lottery, or done xyz) feels like squandering a precious gift. I no longer see time as an endless resource — I value it, and want to make it count because my time here on earth is finite. I cannot wait for someday. Someday has to be today.
Second, my goal is simply to continue this journey. No rest for the weary! More important than the specific tasks and small goals I pledge myself to, is the quest to continue growing and developing into the person I am meant to be. Certainly, I am not there yet. There are external pieces of my life I have clung to out of fear or lacking self-confidence to let go and move on. There are also those parts of my internal self that I have refused to set free out of fear — fear of failure or fear of success. It hardly matters which fear prevents your gifts from seeing the light of day.
Thank you for joining me at Jenion for all or part of the past ten months. I look forward to sharing the next phases of my journey with you — and hope that you will use the comments section to share both your own path and insights. For those who don’t feel comfortable making public comments, please see the “about” tab to learn how to contact me via email.