I have a deck of “angel cards” in my office. Each little card contains one word and a drawing of angels doing something or holding something associated with that word. The cards sit in a beautiful abalone shell, a gift from my friend Wendy.
Here’s how they are used: you draw a card and think about what that word is saying to you at the time you select it. Sometimes, it feels like you’ve drawn a random word that might mean anything. At other times, it is uncanny how you draw just the necessary word for your current mental or emotional state. For example, one day I needed to run errands across town with a very limited amount of time between meetings at the office. I was stopped both going and returning by midday trains, among other time-sucking annoyances. On the way back, once the lengthy train had finally crossed the road, I was stuck in traffic behind a school bus. I was feeling harried, impatient. Road rage was overtaking me just as I spied an alternate route via a side street where I could get out of traffic and go the speed limit. Unfortunately, the school bus, at the last second, entered the turn lane in front of me. And it continued on my alternate route, running a leisurely 15 mph. I couldn’t pass it, and I followed it right into the parking lot at work.
Frustrated, blood pressure elevated to risky levels, I stormed into my office and ranted a high-drama version of my cross-town trip to a coworker, ending with the school bus. My colleague suggested, kindly, that I take a few deep breaths and draw an angel card. I took her advice. The word I drew took the wind completely out of my sails — RELEASE. But the truly unbelievable piece was that the little drawing on the card was of an angel waving goodbye to, you guessed it, a school bus! Direct message sent and received!
I tell this story to illustrate why I pay particular attention to these angel cards. It isn’t that there is magic in them. But, as with many things that allow us to touch our less conscious mind (journal writing is another example) we sometimes surprise ourselves by going to the thing we most need to hear or think about at that moment. And if Providence is also moving to assist – via our guardian angels – then that is a gift worthy of attention.
Over the past several weeks, I have drawn two words out of the abalone shell repeatedly: BIRTH, EXPECTANCY. First, I can assure you these words are not to be taken literally. Even so, they are powerful words. I’ve learned to listen when powerful words come my way with such insistence.
What is trying to come into being in my life? I don’t know, but I am excited and just a little trepidatious. Change, that wonderful, terrible “C” word, fills me with anticipation and fear. I think I am learning to not only accept change, but to embrace it. The fear is born of the knowledge that change always requires something from us — if only the internal readiness to go where we will end up anyway. Friday, after several weeks of pondering BIRTH, I drew a card and discovered that two were stuck together — TRANSFORMATION and TRUST. Alrighty then. I will try to trust myself, my guardian angels, and Providence. Something big is on the horizon, though I can’t quite make it out yet.